I have been having a hard time. I can keep my smile-y face on and keep barreling through, because its kind of been working. I will keep doing it, because I am doing much much better. I sometimes feel this way, and usually because I get run over by bafflement. Things that seem like a no brainer appear, and things are handled in a way- I would never fathom. When you know right from wrong, its easy to see the right way. When others you feel should know right from wrong do things a way you would never consider- it kind of rocks your little world.
I have a hard hard time with people who are selfish. People who can only see the world as how it can benefit them. I try truly hard not to be one of those people, and when people that are close to you do it, its hard to watch and hard to not have it bother you. My struggle is trying to let it not bother me. I was failing. But I am going to just pull up my boots by the boot straps and move on. I expect alot out of the people I love, I guess that is why its so hard when they disappoint.
Thankfully Dave is the perfect man. I would sure be gut kicked if he was the one disappointing me! He knows me too well though. I love too hard. He knows what I expect and he expects that in me as well. That's ok, we are kind of like 2 peas in a pod. I guess 18 years of marriage does that to people.
I am so thrilled that school is almost out. I sure love having my awesome kids around. I am super open, and try to be that with them. They are really the light of our worlds. We love them so much. Thank goodness for them!
