Summer is here. My kids went to do fun things at friends and cousins and will be gone until Friday. Its just me and Juliet. I miss them.

3 Months old today

I have no idea how it has gone so fast. Yet it feels like she has been here forever.

While I was posting these I found a couple of cute ones from our mother's day Zoo excursion. Love those two best friends too.

Moving up

The newborn phase is almost over. Its sad. But its funny how spot on her Diapers are. They came with a little paper with "Helpful Hints" Like how to wash them and what liner to use when. She has been using the newborn Microfiber filler since she was born, but my handy dandy helpful hit said that at about 3 months "your baby will need a thicker filler, as they are drinking more and more." Well- almost right on the money- its time to go to the bigger size. Because she has started leaking...put on the regular liner- and Wallah! Perfection again! Another Bum Genius genius moment. Man I Love them.
We have had such a wonderful 2 weeks with Dave out of school. Its hard when he is so busy! He started homework again tonight...but its summer session, so his classes are more lax, and he is only taking 12 credits! Woohoo! So- we enjoyed it! Now just ready for the kids to get out of school!

I am a bad mom this week. Not one picture of my dolls. Not a one. Trust me though...Nicole is a feisty and gorgeous as ever. Jordan is as handsome as his daddy and looks more like him everyday, and Kira is still the dolly ducky with her wonderful hair. Juliet however, has grown, looking more smart and perfect all the time. I am sorry you missed it. I will correct my failure today. I promise!

therapy

I ran into a friend this week who is having a rough time. My heart goes out to her. Life can be so unkind and unfair sometimes. I had not words for her, but she actually said some that I had been trying to articulate in my heart for a couple of months now. (oh! and by the way... I love you more than I could ever say Chellee, Jessie, and Loo! Really.)
I have mentioned how happy I am these days. I am super tired. I get decent sleep, but devoting every hour to Juliet, and providing all of her nutritional needs is a bit taxing on the exhaustion level. Its well well worth it. I adore every millimeter of her cute sweetness. But the amazing, countless, and sweet hours of just holding her, is hours and hours of heart therapy. I can just breathe in her tender spirit, her lovely newness, and sweet babyness just fills my heart with peace, wonder, and happiness. Its a therapy that could never be bottled, put into sufficient words, or duplicated. I can feel her in every part of me, filling me up and fixing me. I forgot how wonderful the newborn months were.

But they are disappearing fast! As I type, I have her next to me jabbering and smiling at whom ever is sent to keep babies company, she spends hours awake, learning, playing, and growing. My hours of baby therapy are fleeting fast. I know I will have moments for years, but my special time where it is just us, feeling eachother's hearts beating are dwindling. But not without lessons learned and appreciation felt. My heart is so filled and overflowing with joy and happiness. I Know I was supposed to be patient for this baby to be in our home. Its so evident the joy she brings when Nicole, Jordan, and Kira are surrounding her, giggling and trying to get her to talk and laugh at them. I have found myself again, my inner strength, my smile, and my sure knowledge that my Father loves me and hears each of my prayers.

My Therapy is ongoing and always needed. I usually find my answers on my knees, but with an angel constantly laying on my chest, the line to heaven was shorter, clearer, and visible. May it always feel so close.

and... I have to post pictures. Nicole and I were talking to Juliet, and she was being adorable...